1. |
Swim
02:49
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This is a canvas and I will paint it with my words
It makes me sad you won’t notice but I wouldn’t either for what it’s worth
And I will swim in my t-shirts for the rest of my life
And ask lots of questions but never look you in the eyes
She said there’s something wrong with me
It’ll stay there til I’m older
Just pull apart the gap in my teeth
And find some comfort in acting bigger
But there’s a part of this and me
In a confession I couldn’t speak out
There’s not a place where I could be
Where I wouldn’t blow my brains out
But when I hear that song we sang
It’ll make me remember why I am this way
It was a broken piece of what we needed
But I needed to give it away
What’s this with regret I will shake it off like a dog
I’m finally getting the hang of living but maybe me and god would hit it off
And we will swim just for the sake of treading water
And then give it up maybe get swept into
the current
She said there’s no point in anything
And I’ll admit I think it over
Just pull apart my arms and live
In the space I’ve made between them
There will always be this place
The answer‘s in the question
And we will one day see his face
And his hands we’ll get to hold them
But when I hear that song we sang
It’ll make me remember why I am this way
It was a broken piece of what we needed
But I needed to fuck it away
And I never wanted this to end the way we made it
We’re best friends and we can’t be two separate people
We’re best friends and we can’t be two separate people
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2. |
Freddie
01:20
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3. |
Outreach
02:16
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Years of time won’t change anything
We’re still different people
Your hair color did stay the same
Though I’d imagined it be more simple
We won’t acknowledge the time we’ve lost
Instead pick at threads on a sofa
Ask if you’ve seen that Stuckey kid much
She’ll say he moved this last September
And if this is what growing up is
I don’t think I wanna do it
If this is what growing up is
I might as well give up
Hey I’m praying for an outreach
My god I swear on my life he wants to kill me
Plans to die won’t fix our bad habits
Just leave them behind in the dirt
That’s what they’ll remember about us
When they talk of how it hurt
And I didn’t know much about your family til they took me as their own
My mom will live the most unhappy but at least she’s got more than one son
And if this is what growing up is
I don’t think I wanna do it
If this is what growing up is
There’s no point in growing up
I think I’ll just stay here
I think I’ll just stay stuck
I think I’ll just hide out here
Til the voices finally stop
Hey I’m praying for an outreach
My god I swear on my life he wants to hurt me
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4. |
Jim Morrison
04:36
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I am very influenced by celebrities
I want hair like Jim Morrison
And you can talk about suffering to me
I can only feel happiness
Teach me how to spell the word necessary
A shirt has one collar and two sleeves
Teach me how to murder our families
A person has one kidney and two teeth
I forgot that everything was created by you and not me
(x2)
I am under the influence of these birch trees
I wanna live like Jim Morrison
And you can drive your scooter into me
Maybe I’ll feel some remorse then
I’m realizing that words mean nothing more
Than the meanings we give them
So maybe “cock sucking stupid bitch” to you
Is my “really great kind considerate person”
I only wanna die if I die like Jim Morrison
Teach me how to spell the word necessary
A shirt has one collar and two sleeves
Teach me how to murder our families
A person has one kidney and two teeth
I forgot that everything was created by you and not me
(x2)
There are patterns everywhere even here
Everything repeats itself every couple years
We’re on a submarine to the sun 22nd brigade
We’re propelled forward by the shitty choices we all made
There are problems everywhere even here
Everyone repeats themselves every couple years
We’re on a submarine Jim Morrison 22nd brigade
We’re propelled forward by the people we paid
Teach me how to spell the word necessary
A shirt has one collar and two sleeves
Teach me how to murder our families
A person has one kidney and two teeth
I forgot that everything was created by you and not me
(x2)
And not me
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5. |
Fire Drill
03:22
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You’re underneath my kitchen sink
And I’m not sure how you got that way
I’d reach my hand out to pull you up
But you’d never accept the help
I’d reach my hand out to pull you up
But you’d rather be stuck by yourself
I will admit-I am faker
A total bitch-my friends would say a coward
And I’d agree with them and me
There’s a difference between
The change we’d like to see
So what’s the point-just to get higher
I’m sick of love- where’s the real fire
I’d let it burn-we would let it burn together
And then feel guilty
When we don’t feel any better
But I am not your son
Couldn’t be proud of someone you never loved
I’d reach my hand out to pull you up
But you’d never accept the help
And I’m breaking my arm just to help you out
But you’d rather be breaking yourself
and I will never be
What you want me to be
Took a long time to see it
But I know now
And I can never shake
The feeling that you gave to me
Took a long time to figure it out
But I know that I know now
And your reply-it didn’t help me
Not reassurance just made me feel lonely
And I will quit when i want to
When it feels the most convenient
Now there’s no point-we could get higher
And fade away like dust on a tire
Just learn to love-learn to be nicer
Or could bleed out
We’ve got a whole lot of anger
I’d reach my hand out to pull you up
But you’d never accept the help
I’d reach my hand out to pull you up
But you’d rather be stuck by yourself
But I am not your son
Couldn’t be proud of someone you never loved
And I am not your answer
Couldn’t be proud of someone who couldn’t do better
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6. |
Spit
04:11
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Phillip Morris wouldn’t love this
But if he knew me nowadays I think he’d get it
City names that I don’t recognize
Pit stops merged with McDonald’s merged with your mother tried
And I hate Richmond at this time of day
Right lane ends left lane implodes
I hate fishing for something to say
Right lane ends blistered lymph nodes
Are you smiling cuz you’re happy or are you smiling cuz you’re stoned
And you OD’d in the corner of the motel balcony
Teenagers spit gum on you
Teenagers spit gum on me
Our parents still have hope for us
But they’ll give up when they realize we’re all fucked
Pedestrians that I don’t recognize
Peach pits rotting sideways rotting all our insides
And I hate talking like this kind of way
Right answer to the wrong question
I hate walking but not getting away
Right to think I’ve never left them
Are they gonna convince you to stay just tell me where and when
And you OD’d in the corner of the motel balcony
Teenagers spit gum on you
Teenagers spit gum on me
Catching another crow in your butterfly net
Wedging yourself into the space between my wall and bed
Ragged busted toenails all tangled in the carpet
I’m gonna be a legend like your mother always wanted
And if you spit then you spit
If you spit then you spit
If you spit then
You OD’d in the corner of the motel balcony
Teenagers throw rocks at you
Teenagers throw rocks at me
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7. |
Nothing Is Fine
02:41
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Someone’s dehydrated piss in your kitchen sink
The kind of night we won’t miss or at least I think
There’s clothes on the snow bank
A shot glass in your fish tank
And I can’t for the life of me remember how I got here
You said something here is missing but I can’t really think
Maybe our time here is worthless but that's hard to say
And so the hours break down into minutes and days
Caught the glow from your fish tank
And I can’t for the life of me remember why I came back
Nothing is fine
And nothing is fine
And nothing is fine
And none of this is fine (x2)
But I am not in the structure of this home
And I cannot hold it up on my own
There are things to say that have never been said
There are things to say but they’ll never leave our heads
Threw out all my notebooks I threw up the floor cleaner
I don’t feel close but I know you’re getting nearer
There are bubbles in your brainwaves
But I do not feel the same
So I don’t want to wake up tomorrow and be civil
Maybe I should stick to drinking but it’s hard to stay away
From the people who destroy me and it’s much to their dismay
That I’m just another lost cause
Looking for a savior
And I could tell you anything but it won’t fucking change a thing
Nothing is fine
And nothing is fine
And nothing is fine
And none of this is fine (x2)
But I am not in the structure of this home
And I cannot hold it up on my own
There are things to say that have never been said
There are things to say but they’ll never leave our heads
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8. |
Lai
01:46
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You didn’t invite me to your wedding
I didn’t wanna go just know you looked pretty
I’ll send you a gift in the mail
If you want I’ll make sure it gets there within three hours
And I know its hard to be away
How much does the distance really change
They didn’t invite me to your funeral
I would’ve gone but I had to work that night
I sent your family flowers after a couple months
But I think they’re pretending you’re still alive
And what difference does it make
You’ve been craving death since high school
I’m glad you did something for yourself for a change
And I know that it’s not cool or pretty
But I’m happy you did something for yourself for a change
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9. |
Mobo Isn't Coming Back
02:13
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I could fuck this whole road up if I wanted
Carve my name into the stop signs and the pavement
And if I’m a spider you’re a hornet
We don’t have a car or a bike - I don’t know if we’ll make it
And it’s eleven o’clock so the stores are closing
Take my hand give me water don’t expect me to start floating
I hope if I can stick my arm out the car window far enough
One of these passing streetlights can take my arm clean off
And I’m sure it’ll hurt but at least it’ll feel different
When my skin, shoe soles and patience are wearing thin
And god yeah we could die
But wouldn’t that be nice
And now my heads against the steering wheel
I’m pulling at my seatbelt
There’s no hope there’s no salvation here
And I’m stuck here by myself
My heads against the steering wheel
I’m pulling at my seatbelt
There’s no hope there’s no salvation here
Mom I think I need your help
And you can build yourself a new house
It won’t make the days feel longer
You can jump out of that window
Sure as fuck won’t end world hunger
It’s a painful kind of living
When your backwards in the front seat
Or wine drunk on Thanksgiving
Driving nails right through your feet
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10. |
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I wanna know what it’s like
To live in everybody else’s houses
I’ll bring the conversation up
Just so you can act like you don’t hear me
And my roof is caving in
Onto my childhood home
I pass it once or twice a year
But only when I’m feeling cold
I’ll stand outside in the snow
Wait for the current owners to kick me off their lawn
And I’ll sprint a couple miles to the south
I’ll call you up cuz I wanna hear the corners of your mouth
And I know I can’t be like this anymore
And I assure you I’d rather be somewhere else
And I think my mom will wake up at 2am
Just to see if she can seize the ghost in this house
So I’ll go back to where I belong
I’ll go back to where I belong
So I’ll go back to where I belong
I’ll go back to where I belong
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11. |
Bigfoot Exists
02:00
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Bigfoot exists
I’ve seen him outside many times
You knock on my door
I’m not home
I’m not sure
But I swear I hear you breathing halfway across the world
Bigfoot exists
I’ve seen him walking through my mind
You walk though the walls
Life is big
You are small
And I swear I hear you crying halfway out of the door
And the ghosts in this house will watch us forever
And most a hundred years but we’ll probably die tomorrow
We’ll skip ahead a couple months once we figure out time travel
Skip to where the darkness ends to where we’re both fully unraveled
Bigfoot exists
I’ve seen him fifty fucking times
I stand by your grave
I don’t know
I can’t say
But I swear I hear you laughing six feet under the ground
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12. |
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And I think you’re hard to please
And I know you’re always begging on your knees
So don’t go just stay away for a couple days
Cuz I need some time and you need some space
So I’ll make a place where I can hide
That you will never be able to find
And I’ll write a thousand different words
But I’ll never like them enough to be actually heard
And I’m fine
But I thought about what it was like
To be back there and to see them
Drinking chemicals in the kitchen
And I’m fine
I just thought it’d be nice to take time
To make light of our wrongs
To take back all those songs
And I’m fine
So we’ll go away to the city
See all the things I promised you we’d see
And we’d wait for a bus but just forget it in the end
Because you needed love and I needed a friend
And I’ll ask about what you want
You’ll grab my hand and it put it on your heart
Scream feel how loud that thing can go
don’t take advantage just because I don’t know
Now how much more of a cliché could you be
You’re not dark or reckless you’re just afraid
And how much more of an excuse do you need
I’m not saying that I’m much better but at least I can get
And I’m fine
But I thought about what it was like
To be with you and to see them
Supporting every opinion
And I’m fine
I just thought it’s be nice to take time
To make light of my wrongs
But you never had wrongs
And I’m fine
And I’m fine
And I loved you
And I’m fine (x2)
Now how much more of a cliché could you be
You’re not dark or reckless you’re just afraid
And how much more of an excuse do you need
I’m not saying that I’m much better but at least I can get
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13. |
Prettyboy Dam
04:44
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You jumped off the Prettyboy Dam
Left your Mercedes Benz at the top
Two fistfuls of grass in your hands
Must’ve hurt to hold on for that long
You didn’t jump off the higher side
And I’ll probably never get why
I tell myself you thought you would live
I tell myself you only wanted swim
You jumped the Prettyboy Dam
Came straight from your brand new apartment
Said you couldn’t fight so you ran
I think I finally get what you meant
You didn’t jump you just wanted to fly
You didn’t jump you weren’t trying to die
I shield my eyes from the pain you were in
I tell you myself you only wanted to swim
I’ll leave you be if you want
If you’d rather be left alone
I know the way you are
The way you’ve been from the start
I’ll let you sleep on your own
If you’d rather be left all alone
And though your memory is far
I know the way that you are
You jumped off the Prettyboy Dam
In three hundred dollar earrings
Didn’t say goodbye to your friends
Didn’t tell anyone you’d be leaving
And I wish I could’ve been there
Could’ve tackled us both to the ground
Would’ve held your hands and your hair
Could’ve driven back to my house
And I wish I could’ve been there
Though it probably wouldn’t have mattered
It wouldn’t have made the world care
About all the people it shatters
You didn’t jump you just touched the sky
Just wanted to open your eyes
And finally see the bad way you’re in
I tell myself you only to swim
You jumped off the Prettyboy Dam
Left your Mercedes Benz at the top
You jumped off the Prettyboy Dam
Cuz it hurt to hold on for that long
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